Jacs

Still here.
Good to have this at times, good to get a wee rant even if no one listens would write it down but i'm too lazy for that lol. I want a new hair cut something really, really different but i've no idea what that's the problem just know I want it to be diffent any ideas are very welcome.

I got my halloween costume very early I know but i've the money just now which I wont have when UNI starts back. I'm going as Mrs Lovett so have ordered my dress my friend is going as Todd so that will be good, can't wait for it to geyt here.

Getting really bad toothache from my wisedom teeth rather painful :-( can't be bothered working tomorrow someone should go for me but I get the money...

Have started getting into writing again which is good i've missed it.

Don't really think i've much else to say going to go for a bath now.

anyone seen this show? it's amazing!!! I lovbve it...I am adiccted LOL it has amazing actors in it good story lines just a good show.

watch it!!

also still really uneasy about stuff...really not fun

different issue still waiting for exam results lol could be in tomorrow or next week...really want to pass

This thing is driving me mad. I really can't relax want to sleep but I can't...well I can technically but I can't really....wish I didn't have this, worrying all the time it's horrble if I don't get it sorted soon feel like it will ruin my life....

have decided to apply for the post grad in teaching again, really want to it so i'll look into it and apply for it again.

nothing much else to say really want to sleep but can't relax enough too

Have dyed my hair auburn, how very random but I do quite like it/...wonder if anyone even reads the crap I write inthis anymore...lol Got uni exams coming up really soon.,...not looking forward to them...this is a kinda pointless entry but i'm too tired to think o much more to say.

OMG uni sucks well not all of it but politics sucks big time hate it so much. I'm really cared i'm gonna fail. i'm strugglimg to feel motivated think it's because I don't really lknow what I want to do when I finish the course. I hate my jon REALLY hate it. i'm only there cos the money is good also they are saying the lease is running out end of his year so I could kinda have problems...oh dear. But I get boxing day off this year so that's good

Went to the opticians today turns out I need glasses for pretty much everything except just sitting around...lol apparently i'm like blind oh well got some pretty nice glasses. Not much else to say jut feeling pretty fed up for no reason where's the excitment people????????? work, uni BLAH lol

anyway really need to go finish researching this history paper

i'm at uni today at 2pm for a lecture then i'm going home to do nothing for a while then take Suzie to the vet. Yes I got a kitten and she is the sweetest wee thing ever. I love her lol. Eeerm not really got much else to say except i'm tired and can't be bothered going to work tomorrow. Isn't my life just sooo exciting lol

yes i'm still here.
my holiday was amazing!!!!! erm not much has been happening. i'm back at uni tomorrow. my gran was in hospital this week with celulitis (sp?) an infection in her leg but she seems tons better which is really good!!!!!! still working in superdrug got my discount card and nearly finished my level 1 training then get to start level 2 which means 15p an hour more pay yay lol

erm nothing much else to say i'm dull lol

wow it's been so long can't even remember when I last updated so erm what's new with me? hhmmm lol. I have a new job prob said that already but i'm working in Superdrug Sarah works in Superdrug too so we both work in supersrug lol but i'm off for just over two weeks now cos i'm going on holiday tomorrow!!! New Harry Potter comes out on Sat i'm going into Alucdia kinda tourist place to see if I can get it there prob cost more but so I want to read it!! Took my sister to see the film today. I went on Thurs with my friend Allison I thought it was good much better than the last one. This is such a random entry but there you go I passed first year uni woo kinda wanna go back but i'll miss the money from working how will I pay for my booze and seventy pound hair cuts???????????????? no idea what else to say.

I am in the shittiest mood ever, ever EVER!!!!!!!!! I hate being in a shit mood yet a shit mood I am in. I hate uni exams, I hate studying for them, I hate TOTM. I think it's all pointless shit that's getting to me that on it's own wouldn't be a big deal if that makes sense...I want to finish all my exams and find out i've passed then that would make me happy...having a big grump prob all about nothing lol. ah well i'm going to see Caz on fri we'll watch poto...mmmm 'cape action' and maybe potc2 watched potc already on fri after my exams yay for feel good films.

Getting training at work to be the key holder/supervisor more money wooo. So i'll start getting more hours once my exams are over again woo more money and will stop me sitting about doing fuck all. Apparently one of the girls who works there during the week who I will be left in charge of when I take over from the girl who's about to go off on maternity leave is a right lazy pain in the arse who will basically take the piss...aaaghh the joys...Also might be getting trained to work their delivery good over all but BAD in that the delivery is 5.30am on a Tues morning *cries* still finish at 2.30pm hopefully that wont be for a while...but again i'll think of the money.

erm not going to the caravan ok so I was only gonna get to go mon-fri cos i'd need to work but isn't happening as friend got offered trip to spain...kinda mad but what can you do not worth fighting over....getting kinda sick of being in the house all the time...anyway i'm gonna shut up moaning

my head hurts...lots

I hate studying...got a little bit more to do for economics tonight then I can start studying psychology tomorrow oh the excitment!!!!

I hate rude customers I had one today who said our service was disgraceful because we would let him have two bars of chocolate for half price even although the sign clearly said one bar half price with every purchase.....IDIOT!!!!

Spent all day yesterday and today trying to get people to buy the 'new issue of Dare magazine' only 45p lol we met our target woo hoo and my supervising training starts next week so that will be good...wish they'd hurry up and give me a fleece it's cold lol

eeeerrrrmmm think that's it...don't think i've anything else to say dunno if anyone even reads this anymore lol

erm got 58% for my psychology essay was really happy with that cos I struggled with it. Also me and Lynsey got 74% for our economics report Last day of uni tomorrow before study leave can't believe this is the end of 1st year already scary stuff...made my module choices for second year i'm doing
towards total war
research methods
scotishpolitics
scotish and edwardian britian
isle of bute field trip
britsh politics
looking forward to it just studying like crazy just now really want to pass this year with no resits!!!

also got a job in superdrug get paid 5.35pounds an hour im happy with that and i'll get more cos i being trained as their key holder woooo

Got my politics essay back today and I got 58% for it. I'm really happy about that my marks are higher than last semester just hoping that I pass this year. I just really need to work on economics that is so hard....

just working on a politics report just now then i've got an economics one and studying to d over the holidays oh well at least i get longer lies lol

Feeling really low about me in general. I just feel kinda yuck about me you know not very comfortable or happy with who I am. I don't feel attractivwe at all feel like the shaddow almost. I haven't felt like this for a long time but I feel like im 'second best' with most people nothing much else to do so come to me. I do have great friends that I love I really do....
I feel really fat and horrid. I'm back at ss trying to get that problem under control again. Starting to not like being single. Feel as if no one will ever like me. Really don't think i'm pretty or have a 'good personality' even the relationship i did have was a fuvking joke. I dunno can't describe how I feel. Also scared I wont pass uni...I was so happy with everything for ages not felt like this in a long time maybe i'll feel better once i've lost some weight and got some self confidence back. Honestly no looking for sympathy here just feeling a bit down...sorry aboput the rant hopefully i'll be back to normal soon as I know there are people a lot worse off than me out there and I should be greatful for the life I have that makes me feelk even worse for feeling like thid...

I need a job...hire me please lol.
Had an economics talk this week and one of the guys who never did anything didn't bother turning up....dick so me and lynsey had to do it alone. Got our politics one tomorrow we'll be fine with that....I hope lol

got a psychology essay to hand in tommow got no plans for the weekend cos im skint lost my bus ticket so i need to by another one...this is not good ack anyway yeah....

yes they are evil horrible places!! I worke in one for one night it was the worst night of my life. I'm going down to tell him i'm leaving cos well it's SHIT!!!!! someone give me a good job....erm went to see 300 on Friday night it was sooooooooooo good. It was even better because I thought it was going to be crap lol. The costumes were also a VERY big plus mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm yup if you've not seen it go see it! I got 70% for my psychology talk and 65% (the highest mark) for my economics essay....wow! erm nothing else to say

I was taken into hospital on Monday night to get my wisdom teeth removed early tuesday morning. I had to get a hospital gown and stocking on.

In the room where the anestetic (sp?) is given I got an insulin drip then something that would "make you feel a little sleepy" I remember feeling wide awake then thinking maybe i'll the real thing in a minute then I woke up and it was over.

I was taken back to the ward and slept most of the afternoon. Then an elderly woman was brought back from thearte late afternoon away with it on the anestetic shouting "hello nurse!" and "don't steal my slippers" it was quite funny.

Then I got talking to another girl who came in in the early hours of the morning she had her tonsils(sp?) out last week and took a bad bl;eed she was lovely.

hope there're both doing ok.

I got home ion the tuesday my mouth is swollen and can be quite sore but it's getting better soooo glad its over

don't wanna write a politics essay. I would much rather sleep

8.38am and here I am trying to finish this same psychology essay so I can have it finished before I go to uni at 2pm today. I want this essay finished so I can take back the books and get the books I need for my politics essay. oh the joys boys and girls lol.

erm went to the hospital yesterday about getting my wisedom teeth removed. I'm getting taken in on Monday night to get put on an insulin drip and getting it done first think on tues morning...fun?????????????

i'm sleepy :-(

eeerrrm being writing an oh so exciting psychology essay over the past few days. Then i've got a politics one to work on one I finish this as well as carrying out some work for two talks oh the joys of being a student lol.

it's five past four on a saturday afternoon and i've just put my pj's on how sad is that???? tonights plan are working on my coursework sitting on here and maybe watching a film.

The excitment is almost too much.

someone hug me.

got nothing much to say...
i'm sleepy...in a bad mood not sure if I can be bothered going out tomorrow can't be bothered doing anything. Need to get to work on yet another essay.

"Craig has lost a bet with a neuroscientist and so must loose part of his brain. Which part do you suggest he looses and why?

what kinda question is that?????? who would make a bet like that???????? strange people.